Picking up the pieces

It's 3am. I am still not ready to answer the calls of my pillow as it yearns for my head lie upon it. I am still not ready for the darkness that would welcome me. I am still not ready for what will come after I close my eyes.

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Cracks upon the walls

Cracks upon the windows

Cracks upon the paintings

Cracks upon the memories.

You came to me when I was not myself

You held me when I was unable to feel

You heard me when I was unable to speak

You saw me when I could not see myself.

Why was I too focused

Why was I too absorbed

Why was I too blinded

To see that there were more to be.

I saw that tear when you didn't see

I heard that cry when you didn't speak

I felt that pain when you didn't show

I stood by drowned in myself

You walked away

I moved forward

You turned away

I reached for you.

Deep down the pain grew

Deep down love fought.

As we moved

I picked up the pieces

As we moved

I put the pieces together

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I still hang on as things have been hard. I believe that we are made for each other. Life get's hard sometimes but then we get through it together. We've been through this before.

21st on the 21st of April

Recently, I celebrated my 21st birthday. Welcome Adulthood. It was the usual wishes, cake, and same old day. There was one thing that really made it special though. This marks the 2nd year I'm celebrating my birthday with my dearest girlfriend. That's special enough for my birthday celebration. Literally having her with me is special enough to make my day, that was why I told her not to get me anything for my birthday. Little did I know she went ahead and got me one.

 

"Hey, I got you something for your birthday." she told me.

"Oh, I thought I told you not to." I said, "Just you being with me is good enough" :I

"B-but, it's handmade!" she says

"O-oh. Okay then..." I smiled

*Passes me a box which I open*

"I-it's a scarf." I said.

"Y-yeah, cause you said you were going to further your studies overseas," she said, "Didnt know it wouldn't happen."

"I-I'd still be going...only a year later, hopefully." I said.

"S-so, do you like it?" she asks.

*Tries it on*

" It's..comfy," I said, "Thanks dear" =)

 (>///w////<) (<<<< that was her reaction, blushing)

 

The scarf she made

 

 I really appreciate her effort in making this for me as well as her being thoughtful. If you're reading this, dear, I really really love you. Thank you for putting up with me this long. The things we've been through together and the memories we've made, and that we're still together. =)

Thank you for everything and my birthday wish? I can't tell you that. It might make it lose it's effect.

P.s: I-It's not l-like I reallllyyy treasure it o-or anything   >////A////<

One Four Four Two O One Four

Time really flies. Even more so when you actually sit down and think about it. A year and a half back, I was still a college student going about life as a college student(duh) and enjoying my hobbies. Spent certain weekends going to ACG events and cosplaying.

Fast forward 613 days(more or less). I've been through small arguments, little disagreements, periods of cold silence. There were happy times too, laughing together times, enjoying each other's company. In that period of time, I graduated from college with a diploma, she graduated from foundation and moved on to a degree course. Six hundred and thirteen days more or less in rough calculations, we've been together. She regularly puts up with my temper issues, my jealousy bouts, my weird moments.

Yeap, she's the one I'm talking about. She's petite, but she doesn't let that stop her. She's just as strong willed as anyone. Enough to put up with my antics at times. I am truly happy to have her by my side.

Ps: Love you

Love for armors

Hi guys! Today I'll be doing a review on something from our childhood. It was also a recent hit in cinemas for all walks of ages. No idea what it is? It's something you build using brick blocks. LEEGGOOOOOOO!!

Been ages since I played with one. Just today I happened across one and thought why not? Got a box for myself. It wasn't an original manufactured by Lego toy though, more of a China bootleg merchandise. But, I am very very very very very impressed(note how I used 5 very's. I am that impressed). For a bootleg model, it has really good details, the joints function well, workmanship was great. If I were to give it a rating of 1- 10 I'd say probably 7, 7.5, maybe 8?

Presenting the

Decool brand. Iron Man variant, War Machine

The packaging looked good, details and illustrations were nice. What's in the box?

The box includes the instruction manual and parts for the War Machine

There was extra parts. They provided extra of those red circle parts.

A look on Rhode's face. He wasn't too pleased.

The War Machine came with two faces, an angry determined looking one on one side, and a calm determined one on the back. Kinda like Good Cop, Bad Cop from The Lego Movie.

Normal face

Not so happy face

Yeah, don't mess with the blac- I mean don't mess with War Machine. He might mess you up.

Fully assembled and put on stand

Helmet open look

I kinda liked the angry look. Gives him more realistic feel. I used the extra red parts for the cannon as extension. Overall it was a solid design, limbs were a bit stiff but a bit of swivelling around should help. Head was a bit lose to the neck connection, the lower torso too. Not much issue though cause they weren't falling off, only loose when you applied slight pressure to remove them.

That's all I guess for this review. Oh, and did I mention I loved Iron Man armors? Yeah. I do.

Till next~
Vincent

P.s: The instruction manual came with a comic too! Oh joy!

Valentine's 2014. Operation Success~

Finally an update from me again! Yay! Doubt anyone actually still checks up on my blog. But I'll just greet..uh..the imaginary..readers..that I think I have. Recently two events just passed. What are they? Chinese New Year and Valentine's!

Aside from the, uh, small amount and continuously lessening amount of the Ang Pau or red packet, this year's Valentine's also falls on the 15th day of Chinese New Year or Lunar New Year. The Lunar New Year usually lasts for about 15 days cause that's when the new moon comes up or something like that. The 15th day of the Lunar New Year is known as Chap Goh Mei. As a tradition people would write messages or put down their contact details on a mandarin orange and throw them into a river or sea and let the waters deliver the oranges to any destination and if luck is on their side, someone would pick it up and contacts them. It's kinda like a traditional dating thingy, where the single guys hope a girls contacts them and vice versa.

Okaaayyyy, so 15th day of Lunar New Year or Chap Goh Mei is also known as Chinese Valentine's. If...I'm not mistaken. I think. I hope. ( <--- Embarrassment to my ancestors) So yeah, this year's 14th of February which is Valentine's Day also  falls on the 15th of the Lunar New Year. 

                                                   DOUBLE VALENTINE'S!!!

Yup, you can ignore the bold thingy. So I celebrated Valentine's with my dearest. We watched a movie, The Lego Movie. It was funny and... Everything. Is. Awesome. Totally. Awesome. Then we both headed over to Food Foundry. It's famous for it's Mille Crepe Cakes. Then we headed back to my girlfriend's house. No...not for sex.

Le two of us together at Food Foundry =D

I made a gift for her. (And also totally messed up my kitchen as well)

Chocolate Dipped Strawberries for my dearest <3

I was actually planning it to be like a dozen roses but meh, better luck next time. Glad she liked it though =) Then we had a little project with her wall.

She's so darn adorableeeeee ~

Made a heart on the wall with a bunch of post it notes. Was initially planning on just taking pictures in the heart and out of it with my girlfriend but then an idea came and I decided to write stuff on half of the hearts and she did the same. Wrote some stuff about us, our relationship and stuff.

My words on the post its.

Hers <3

Yeap, that's how it went for my Valentines =)
Even though spending everyday like it's Valentine's, you just have to up the game and do something extraordinarily special for a special occasion, even more so when your partner is extraordinary. Cause to accept being with me, that takes a lot of guts and uh...extraordinary stuff. =P

Till next time I guess~

Vince

P.s: She's so so cute isn't she?

My love. <3

So it is

One week and that's seven days, which is 168 hours, in turn makes it 10080 minutes, meaning 604800 seconds. Yeah, this is another post alright.

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There was "nothing" wrong, therefore "nothing" to talk about. That was what he kep repeating to himself in his thoughts. He had been indifferent. He had been cold. He had tried to cover it by momentarily showing warmth. He had acted responsive. He didn't like it. His true feelings eventually resurfaced again. Even Shina could tell something was wrong.

"What's wrong?" Shina had asked him a few times.

To which he would reply, "Nothing. Nothing at all."

Because it was "true". Because it was what she herself had told him. He had asked, and he had gotten his answer. Even if Shina was going to keep asking him if anything is wrong, he could only answer that there was nothing wrong at all. There was that one time, he was on his way home from purchasing supplies for a trip to the mountains. He turned a corner and saw Shina and Menx. They didn't notice him and he just turned and stayed behind that corner. He didn't mean to eavesdrop but what he heard made his blood boil.

"Hey, this may a little late and all, for the long period it is, but I'll just say I'm sorry." Vale heard Menx telling Shina.

"Oh, it's fine really. Don't have to worry about it." Shina replied.

"That still doesn't make it fine with me." Menx had said.

"No, really, it's fine. I don't hold grudges anyway." Shina told Menx.

This feeling of hatred was new to Vale. He was one who never held grudges. Always after sleeping it off, he would forget about any problems he might have with anyone and it was all fine. No grudge, no hate, no ill feelings whatsoever. It was different for Menx. He was the one person he never could forgive. Maybe for all the things he had said, and the things he did and promised and claimed, only turn his back against all those. This was one person Vale could not forgive. For he had apologized twice on occasion that was never really his fault. Only that Menx was making it such a big deal that Vale had took the blame for the sake of friendship. Rather than facing the issue, Menx had avoided and pushed the problems aside. 

This feeling of hatred embedded itself within Vale and eventually, the less he had to do with Menx, the better. Anyone he knows who knew Menx, as long as they didn't bring the Menx up, it was all fine. However, for someone like Shina, who knew clearly how he felt about this to do something like this and yet hide it from him, it fueled his hatred even more.

He stared at the dices in front of him which he was rolling absent-mindedly earlier. He had given her the chance to tell him. She probably didn't know that he already knew about this. Maybe she forgot, maybe she wanted to hide this, he did not know. He knew he had asked, and she had hid this knowledge. He only knows that now, it's all up to time and fate to decide. If this keeps on, he would be the one to walk away. Not because he hated Shina, but because of the hatred within him that it clouded over his heart.

They say, "Hate and Love are separated by a thin line." They forgot to mention that Love and Hate are one and the same. It was only the feeling behind them that determines the outcome. So he would let the dice roll for a little longer. Let this Game of Life go on for a little longer.

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Till next time.

Let it be

The return after a long absence and this is not gonna be a happy post.

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"Is there something....you need to tell me?" Vale asked.

"No. Nothing I guess?" Shina answered without a hint of hesitation.

They were together for over a year now, and yet..... Vale could only calm himself and said, "Okay, so be it."

He wasn't going to pursue the matter. If that's the way Shina wanted to do this, then he would let it be. He continued walking ahead as Shina slowly followed him from behind. This wasn't the first time, and probably wouldn't be the last.

It was always this way for as long as Vale could remember. He wasn't even sure whether she did this intentionally or whether she was just really clueless. He remembered their discussion months back. He recalled how they both said, "He's an asshole" and they both agreed. The one they were both referring to was Menx.

Menx was a friend of theirs back when they were still in training. The three of them would occasionally meet and talk. But everything changed when Vale and Shina pulled a prank. Menx just cut them off from then, on the basis that he just couldn't take it anymore.

But just a mere few days ago, Vale couldn't believe his eyes. Shina and Menx were both talking and hanging out at a cafe. It was a coincidence that he saw and decided not to intrude on them. He thought maybe the fact that they were talking again had slipped her mind and she forgot to tell him, but he felt betrayed. As far as he recalled they both shared the same hatred.

Menx was the one man he will not forgive, not till he personally apologized. This was one grudge he would hold. Because he had already taken the initiative to apologize. Twice. In which cicumstances had that he was never at fault. If even Shina was keeping this from him, even after he gave her the chance to explain, then he would remain this way. Since there was "nothing" wrong, then there was "nothing" for him to talk about.

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I'll just cut it off there for now, maybe I'll continue the story again.

Toodles.