Monday 13 January 2014

So it is

One week and that's seven days, which is 168 hours, in turn makes it 10080 minutes, meaning 604800 seconds. Yeah, this is another post alright.

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There was "nothing" wrong, therefore "nothing" to talk about. That was what he kep repeating to himself in his thoughts. He had been indifferent. He had been cold. He had tried to cover it by momentarily showing warmth. He had acted responsive. He didn't like it. His true feelings eventually resurfaced again. Even Shina could tell something was wrong.

"What's wrong?" Shina had asked him a few times.

To which he would reply, "Nothing. Nothing at all."

Because it was "true". Because it was what she herself had told him. He had asked, and he had gotten his answer. Even if Shina was going to keep asking him if anything is wrong, he could only answer that there was nothing wrong at all. There was that one time, he was on his way home from purchasing supplies for a trip to the mountains. He turned a corner and saw Shina and Menx. They didn't notice him and he just turned and stayed behind that corner. He didn't mean to eavesdrop but what he heard made his blood boil.

"Hey, this may a little late and all, for the long period it is, but I'll just say I'm sorry." Vale heard Menx telling Shina.

"Oh, it's fine really. Don't have to worry about it." Shina replied.

"That still doesn't make it fine with me." Menx had said.

"No, really, it's fine. I don't hold grudges anyway." Shina told Menx.

This feeling of hatred was new to Vale. He was one who never held grudges. Always after sleeping it off, he would forget about any problems he might have with anyone and it was all fine. No grudge, no hate, no ill feelings whatsoever. It was different for Menx. He was the one person he never could forgive. Maybe for all the things he had said, and the things he did and promised and claimed, only turn his back against all those. This was one person Vale could not forgive. For he had apologized twice on occasion that was never really his fault. Only that Menx was making it such a big deal that Vale had took the blame for the sake of friendship. Rather than facing the issue, Menx had avoided and pushed the problems aside. 

This feeling of hatred embedded itself within Vale and eventually, the less he had to do with Menx, the better. Anyone he knows who knew Menx, as long as they didn't bring the Menx up, it was all fine. However, for someone like Shina, who knew clearly how he felt about this to do something like this and yet hide it from him, it fueled his hatred even more.

He stared at the dices in front of him which he was rolling absent-mindedly earlier. He had given her the chance to tell him. She probably didn't know that he already knew about this. Maybe she forgot, maybe she wanted to hide this, he did not know. He knew he had asked, and she had hid this knowledge. He only knows that now, it's all up to time and fate to decide. If this keeps on, he would be the one to walk away. Not because he hated Shina, but because of the hatred within him that it clouded over his heart.

They say, "Hate and Love are separated by a thin line." They forgot to mention that Love and Hate are one and the same. It was only the feeling behind them that determines the outcome. So he would let the dice roll for a little longer. Let this Game of Life go on for a little longer.

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Till next time.

Sunday 5 January 2014

Let it be

The return after a long absence and this is not gonna be a happy post.
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"Is there something....you need to tell me?" Vale asked.
"No. Nothing I guess?" Shina answered without a hint of hesitation.
They were together for over a year now, and yet..... Vale could only calm himself and said, "Okay, so be it."
He wasn't going to pursue the matter. If that's the way Shina wanted to do this, then he would let it be. He continued walking ahead as Shina slowly followed him from behind. This wasn't the first time, and probably wouldn't be the last.

It was always this way for as long as Vale could remember. He wasn't even sure whether she did this intentionally or whether she was just really clueless. He remembered their discussion months back. He recalled how they both said, "He's an asshole" and they both agreed. The one they were both referring to was Menx.

Menx was a friend of theirs back when they were still in training. The three of them would occasionally meet and talk. But everything changed when Vale and Shina pulled a prank. Menx just cut them off from then, on the basis that he just couldn't take it anymore.

But just a mere few days ago, Vale couldn't believe his eyes. Shina and Menx were both talking and hanging out at a cafe. It was a coincidence that he saw and decided not to intrude on them. He thought maybe the fact that they were talking again had slipped her mind and she forgot to tell him, but he felt betrayed. As far as he recalled they both shared the same hatred.

Menx was the one man he will not forgive, not till he personally apologized. This was one grudge he would hold. Because he had already taken the initiative to apologize. Twice. In which cicumstances had that he was never at fault. If even Shina was keeping this from him, even after he gave her the chance to explain, then he would remain this way. Since there was "nothing" wrong, then there was "nothing" for him to talk about.
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I'll just cut it off there for now, maybe I'll continue the story again.

Toodles.