Appreciation and what it means

Well, this is a another post for today, I must really be pouring everything out of me..It won't be a long post but just another poetic contribution.
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I Do...But can You See it?

Things that don't belong to me
Property belonging to another
I am grateful that you allow me to use them
I am happy that you trust me with them
But I guess, you don't see it?
Those words you ask of me
Were you actually implying a meaning?
Were you saying a statement?
Were you asking me a question?
The tone
The form of words
I can't really tell what you want from me.
You say I don't appreciate it?
Did I say that ?
You just assumed I did
How was I to answer you when you
Did not ask me a question directly?
I do appreciate the things you let me use
But can you see it?
Do you even realize it?
I don't know...
Only you can tell me
I may show it in a different way but
Yes I do appreciate it.

Of Faults and Pain to the Heart. Hurt to all~

Well...hello everybody. First and foremost, forgive me for the lousy greeting. I am feeling sort of down at the moment. I just got out of an argument with a blood relative. As I have found out...Arguments are not nice. It always ends up with both parties being hurt.
This message is to who it may concern, I don't know whether you will check my blog, or whether you will even bother reading, but I have given you the link to my blog. I have nothing to hide, I have nothing evil to say. I guess.
Back to my post. I am now turning to the one place where I'm at least a somebody, my blog. I'm turning to one place where at least I can pour out my emotions with no fear of any retribution besides my book of self poems in my room. Yes, my blog is the one place I can pour my pain, happiness, loneliness, sadness, joy, enthusiasm and so many other feelings. I shall say it in poem form. Two pieces, written to express what turmoil I have in me.
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The Confusion and Questions in Me.

Those eyes that stare at me
Those eyes that glare at me
Those eyes full of kindness
Those eyes full of anger
I can feel them looking at me
Even when I chose to stare at something else
I do not return your gaze
I do not challenge that stare
For I know it will only add up to much much more pain
I stare at a blank spot on the wall
Why me I ask?
Why me?
There is no answer
There is not even a whisper of indication
You choose only to see what is in front of you
You choose only to see what is in physical form
You choose only to see what a failure I am
When I try to change
Small words of encouragement sound like sarcasm to me
Words of encouragement that turn to discouragement soon after
What am I to you actually?
That's an answer only you know
For you have called me so many different things
I stare at the four walls that are now holding me in
I stare at the four blank walls and ask
Why me?
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The Turmoil of Emotions~ It Hurts

I stare out the window
I see all those images flash by one by one
I can hear the quiver in your voice
I know how much it hurts you as it hurts me too
I can feel something hot trickling down the sides of my cheeks
I can feel my eyes welling up
I know
Because you are hurting too
Is this what arguments have brought onto us?
Is this the pain that we both are condemned to?
It doesn't make me one little bit happy in any sense.
I don't think you can see the tears rolling down my cheeks
I don't think you even know why I'm crying
For all you know
I should be whooping with joy
But I'm not
I can tell we are both hurt in our own ways
The skies the rain the rumble
The rain drops that fall
It feels as if the skies are crying with us.
There's the turmoil of emotions in me
The anguish and pain
But I guess you don't see that
I guess...
You just don't know me
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Yes..Those are the two poems that actually tell of the beginning and the ending of arguments. The pain...It's not a happy ending for anyone. As the title suggests, "Of Faults and Pain to the Heart. Hurt to all", both sides are hurt and nothing feels good. I don't know whether you are reading this. I on't know what your reaction is to this, but if words that come to me feels just the way I think it would...then, maybe as poem #2 said...you don't know me....

Till...next
Vincent...

Time for....Spring cleaning? After so long.

Well, hello people *sneezes*. Oh, excuse me for that *grabs tissue*. How's everyone doing? Fine I hope? Cause....I'm in cleaning mode right now and have no cheerfulness to go with it. Why is that? Well, let me entertain you with a short story of how it came to "Spring Cleaning".

Well, see here, once there was a boy, well, not actually a boy considering he's already 18, so he's more of like a young adult in this case but very much a boy too in all all physical state of organs from top to "bottom". Wait...a double checking to confirm. Yes, very much male. *Ahem* Yes, back to the story. So, one day, while the boy who is actually a young adult was drawing in his room on a table, he accidentally dropped his pencil and it rolled of the table to the back of a cabinet. The boy who is actually a young adult curses as any normal young adults his age do and bends over to retrieve it. LO AND BEHOLD! When the boy drew his pencil out from below the cabinet, how shock he was to see that the pencil was wrapped from top to *ahem* bottom in dust and dust balls. Staring at the pencil for a few seconds, the boy who is actually a young adult finally came to a conclusion. "I AM GOING TO DO A THOROUGH CLEANING IF MY ROOM."

So, as you may have guess now, yes, that boy who is actually a young adult is me. Yes, me. My room has been swept and cleaned only on the exterior. I have never known that behind my various cabinets and wardrobe lies a colony of dust armies and they have been steadily building their empire there. -facepalms- Okay, maybe I should have the common sense to know but all in all, it's time I go to war with the "Dust Empire". Too bad this would be a one man war, where it's me against the "Dust Armies". -Suddenly thinks of Rambo-

So yes, it's time to go to war. -picks up scythe(Broom)-
Wish me luck in cleaning and that I don't cough/choke to death when the "Dusties" strangle me.

Cheers till next~
Vincent -snaps on face mask-

CHAARRRRGGGGGEEEEE!!!!!!

Of Anime, Manga and Cosplay~ C2AGE? AWESOME!!

Well hello people, it seems like I've been away for a short while. How's everyone doing? Hopefully everything's going well on your side. =D (Smiles sure make a difference)
Anyways, what have I been up to lately? Nothing much except.....C.2.AGEEEE!!!!!! Oh yes. That's a small A.C.G (Anime,Comics, Games) Event. This year marked it's 5th anniversary of holding it's event. You GO C2AGE!!! YEAH! (Forgive me for my hyperness.) Well, it took place on the 21st and 22nd of May 2011 at a place called Tropicana City Mall. Unfortunately for me, I only managed to make it for Day 1 of C2AGE. OTL (Cries and sobs) Oh well, *transform!* (Cheerful mode again) I had a great time there. Managed to snap lots of pictures. Made new friends and met some friends there. Was really a great event. Anyways, why waste time with words? Let's let the images speak for themselves! (just a few pictures)

Am I ...going to die...>.<???

A friend I've been longing to see. Nice to meet you AMELEA!!

 Yeap...just some sneak peeks of my C2AGE album. There was also an awesome replica display from known movies such as, Lord of the Rings, Hellboy, and Thor.

THOR'S HAMMER!!!

 Awesome right? This is C2AGE. Wait till Comic Fiesta 2011 comes. That will be the 'bomb'. Oh yes. Besides that, on that very same day, I went to a play at KL Performing Arts Center. The title of the was, 'A History of Falling Things.' It was a really entertaining play.

It was about a boy who as a kid, was hit by a shoe that fell out of nowhere. From then on he developed a fear of falling objects which turned into a fear of falling satellites. Eventually he stayed in his room and refused to leave it. His mom got him a psychiatrist but to no avail. He then met a girl online and they talked to each other through webcam. They eventually develop feelings for each other and encouraged one another to put effort into getting out of their fear. This play was really touching and hilarious in certain parts. Thumbs up to the actors and actresses.

I had a pretty eventful weekend. In about a weeks time, I'll be heading to college. Then thus begins my new step in life, COLLEGE. Oh yea, excited much =D

A snapshot of fun~

 More pictures in my Facebook album here
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1975205733840.114568.1053966353
And here
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1975339857193.114573.1053966353


And, I guess, That's all for now FOLKS!~ 
Cheers~
Vincent the AVID ACG fan.

An Outing With Movies and Arcade

Greetings readers of my blog. I'm back again after a slight absence. How's everyone doing? I'm doing really really fine. In fact, I had an awesome time out with some friends today. Who were they? Well, JFN, NWK, and Kang Wei. What did we do? Movies and some arcade fun! Oh yes, you heard me right, arcade fun.

This was a last minute plan on a facebook wall. An innocent status update that quickly changed to an awesome day out planning. (Cheers for last minute awesomeness!)
Where did we go? The one and only.....Cheras LEISURE MALL!!!!! We watched a movie, Priest. It was really really cool. The movie was jam packed with action sequences. Really great. We had brunch at Wong Kok. That's sort of like a modern 'kopitiam' style diner. I ordered a chinese tea drink. Gosh....the chinese tea was one heck of a huge cup of drink....Lookit this pictures D=

Size of my hand. 2x the size of my fists =O

Same size as a big bowl of rice?

Size of my FACE!!!

 HOOOOOMIIIGOOOOSSSSSHH!!?? That's one huge cup of tea. oTL
Anyways, after that we went to the arcade....and guess what? We beat the highscore for Ninja Assassin. Not us really...it was all thanks to JFN!!!! JFN FTW!!! Picture proof.

Best PLAYER OF THE DAY! Top 3. Awesome.

So yeah, we had a really awesome time. =D

OH!! One more exciting news. I'm starting college in two weeks time. Heck yeah! I'm excited. I'm enrolled in IACT College. Going for Diploma in Creative Multimedia. Orientation 30th May. Oh yes....A new step in my life has finally been added.


Chiaos people~
Cheers and till next~
Vincent

To My Mother. My Dearest Mother.

Hello everybody! My it does amaze me how time does pass. It's already nearing mid year. First and foremost, I apologize for my two week absence (apparently I came down with a bad bout of writer's block, that's a serious illness). With mid year comes the mid year examinations in school, half year gone, mid year holidays and so much more. My, it was just like yesterday I was just learning how to walk. A blink of an eye and now it's already 18 years past those days of learning how to talk instead of going "goo goo gaga"( Go Go Gaga. >.<???) Haha, that's how we were those days. So anyway, today, it's the 7th of May. Not much of a special day right? Well, I'm not talking about today but tomorrow. Why you ask?? Because....it's........MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!
To all mother's worldwide, I wish you a heartfelt "Happy Mother's Day". I have composed a poem especially for this special day. Enjoy~
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Staring at those old pictures
Images of black and white
Images in colors
How long those years have passed
How everything has changed

The once beautiful and radiant woman
The once energetic and great woman
How you have suffered
The ordeal of bringing me up
Those nine long months of hardship
Continued by the long years
Of educating and bringing me up
To who I am today

The tears I have brought to your eyes because of my mistakes
The pain I have brought to your heart because of my attitude
The suffering caused by my childish argument with you
Only god knows how sorry I am now
All those long years you endured
To bring me up to who I am today
Only god knows how much I appreciate you

Although I only wrote this on mother's day
I want you, my mother, to know
That no matter what
No matter when
Everyday will be a mother's day to you
You don't have to wait a whole year just for this one day
Happy Mother's Day
Now and
Forevermore
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Yes, to everyone out there. What I'm trying to say is, you don't have to wait once a year to show how much you love your mother. For, you are able to see her everyday. Why not make every single day a "Mother's Day" for your dearest mother who has sacrificed so much.

Cheers,
Vincent (over and out)